by Sha Najak, poet/artist

3.21.2006

http://hotzone.yahoo.com/b/hotzone/blogs2986

This is a poem with regards to the debate about day offs for maids in Singapore.

Hmmmm.......
I clean
I sleep
I eat

I do this everyday
For money

Very nice
Big house, car and children

I do this everyday
For my family

Cannot stop
Cannot go out
Mum will scold me

I'm tired
I want to rest

But I cannot

Shot (I spoke to me after I shot me)


Can’t sleep
Laid awake remembered that day
The moon, wonder if life will run better
Crushed on that single night

Search helplessly for answers
Why I did it
It is staring at my face
Quit wasting time

Painless ecstasy
Blood smells bad and lips cracked

No more soulless body
Lost in this wilderness of filth

Remind me of what I become
Stare at filth created from above

Dreams were high
Turned out acting is not my stage

Gone those innocent youthful days
In comes the adult strategist

Tempt
Crush
Rule

No mental peace
Stand up, stand up to shame

Shoot guilt
Shoot numb
Red the white sheets go

Die of a slow death
Dog will not sniff fatal corpse

Bleach the red sheets my child
Next is coming